I personally like Siapa Yang Datang ke Pemakamanku better because that book somehow is more encouraging than this one. Baek Se-hee circled on the same problems on and on and after reading it for a while, it’s getting too monotone for me. I think she can use that space to encourage people better - not only telling and retelling. Generally this book was pretty repetitive. Little progress was made and Baek needed lots of reassurance she was doing okay. It wasn’t gripping or exciting, but also, that’s what therapy is like.

it wasn't hard at all to realize that maybe not all therapy sessions in this book were successful, i would have liked some problems to be discussed more, not just followed by other questions, but i enjoyed learning about the author's family, her way of thinking and her view of relationships with other people But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?Jika dibandingkan, sejujurnya aku lebih suka cover buku yang pertama. Begitu pun dengan penataan isi buku dan kualitas kertasnya, aku juga lebih suka yang pertama meskipun memang ada tulisan dengan latar berwarna magenta yang menyakitkan mata sementara di buku ini tidak ada lagi. Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?

Korean author Baek-Sehee has her whole life ahead of her. She works as a successful young social media director at a publishing house where her boss seems to genuinely care about her. Yet, despite her loving friends and doting family, she finds herself at a loss. She feels depressed, constantly running low, feeling anxious, and self-conscious. On the outside, she cultivates a perfect porcelain mask for her loved ones, who are not at all aware of the agony she endures. To find answers, she decides to consult a psychiatrist. What’s wrong with her? Such turmoil can’t be normal, right? Satu kata itu, distimia, sebenarnya sangat "akrab" buatku pribadi sejak awal tahun ini. Terus, baca percakapan si penulis saat konseling dengan psikiaternya bikin berpikir banyak. Mungkin beberapa orang nggak bakal terlalu gimana saat baca, tapi buatku pribadi sih ya kayak banyak ruang privasiku yang terasa dihunjam. Paling suka ketika penulis selamat dari kecelakaan yang membuatnya "bersyukur". Seperti buku pertamanya, di buku kedua ini Baek Se Hee kembali menuliskan pengalaman dan perasaannya selama ia mengalami distimia-depresi ringan yang terus menerus- yang sudah dialaminya selama 10 tahun, ia juga kembali menuliskan percakapannya saat ia melakukan konseling dengan psikiaternya. Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgemental of others. Oleh karena itu, besar harapanku buku ini bisa menambah kesadaran masyarakat terhadap isu kesehatan mental dan menjadi lebih bersahabat dan mendukung teman-teman yang sedang mengalaminya.

Alas, the book has a major problem: It is unbelievably boring. The educational impulse is overwhelming, protagonist Baek remains a chiffre, and the (highly professional) dynamic between her and her therapist doesn't allow for enough immersion. Also, you would expect more complexity from a novel that focuses on the guidance of a mental health professional - but then again, I suppose the author wanted to connect to younger people who are afraid to reach out for help, and for this demographic, this highly accessible approach might be justified.

Di buku kedua ini, Baek Se Hee menceritakan apa yang ia rasakan saat ia bekerja di kantornya dan alasannya ingin berhenti saja dari perusahaan itu; ia menceritakan kegelisahannya terhadap panilaian orang-orang di sekitarnya, baik orang yang ia kenal ataupun tidak; ia menceritakan bahwa ia benci melihat tubuhnya sendiri dan betapa ia masih terluka akibat perkataan dari teman-temannya dulu tentang bentuk tubuhnya. Baek Se Hee menceritakan semuanya dengan gamblang, termasuk saat ia terus-terusan berpikir untuk mengakhiri hidupnya. Baek Se Hee pernah mencoba untuk melompat dari atap villa saat ia berlibur bersama dengan kekasihnya di Yeonnam-dong. Selain itu, ia pun terus-terusan melukai dirinya sendiri dan terus-terusan menangis sampai akhirnya psikiaternya menyarankannya untuk melakukan rawat inap. Bagian ini mungkin akan terasa mengganggu untuk beberapa orang, termasuk aku. It's not a book for me, but I love this journey for you, Baek Se-hee (as I failingly attempt to flip my hair like Alexis from Schitt’s Creek). Quit your job to turn your emotional shit into gold? I 'stan'. At least she seems very genuine about it all. I'm just not the right reader for the book, which is a shame, but I can imagine someone else actually loving it a whole lot more than I did. I was expecting some dark beast of a book. This is a bit mild for me, but that doesn’t mean the writing doesn’t matter. It does very much; it just doesn’t resonate with me. I’m just not the right reader for this, unfortunately. And unfortunately, I vibe with Sarah Kane’s 4.48 Psychosis more, which really, just tells you more about me than Baek's book. the title grabbed me instantly and when i heard namjoon read it, i added it to my tbr immediately. i've never felt more seen reading a book.There’s a desire to punish yourself, shall we say. You have this superego that exerts control over you, a superego built not only from your own experiences but cobbled together from all sorts of things that you admire, creating an idealised version of yourself. But that idealised version of yourself is, in the end, only an ideal. It’s not who you actually are. You keep failing to meet that ideal in the real world, and then you punish yourself. If you have a strict superego, the act of being punished eventually becomes gratifying. For example, if you’re suspicious of the love you’re receiving, and so act out until your partner lashes out and leaves you, you feel relief. You eventually become controlled more by imaginary outside forces than anything that is actually you.’ Buatku pribadi, buku kedua dari Baek Se-hee ini terasa lebih "intim" dibandingkan buku sebelumnya. Masih berisi percakapannya dengan sang psikiater, juga masalah penulis dengan distimia yang dia derita.