Out of Control: How My Addiction Almost Killed Me

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A lot of boys never went to the point of saying what I went through. Me personally, it's almost like (going through a) death. You wouldn't slag somebody about a relative dying. But after completing rehabilitation in Cuan Mhuire in Newry in 2014, the call came from Harte to rejoin the Tyrone panel. A year later he was an All-Star nominee. Gambling was a release from the anger," he says. "I was in a safe place and I could feel this buzz, this energy, and it felt good. When I had money and was gambling I was never angry - that only happened when the money disappeared."

Yet behind all that success lay an extremely dark secret, a gambling addiction that cost him hundreds of thousands of pounds, endless relationships and, almost, his life.He described how his mother was forced to call in the fraud squad after he applied for and used credit cards in her name. As he mentioned in his book Out of Control, it was an experience he can never wash away, but he could move on and football was the vehicle. Already gambling heavily by the age of 17, the footballer applied for three credit cards in his mother's name to access more money. Cathal Óg Mac Maghnusa: A 15th century Irish historian known for the Annals of Ulster. FAQs about the Irish name Cathal What is Cathal in Irish? When the video went viral, some of those forums were laced with comments from gay men about how much they wanted to have sex with me.

C McC: When I step out onto the field, every single day, even during the national anthem, I won't sing the national anthem. Most of the time I am saying the Memorare (Prayer to Virgin Mary). This wasn't just advice. He was carrying a threat from the IRA. He told me that if I didn't leave, I'd be shot. He said they were coming to the house that night to carry out their threat and shoot me," he said.At that stage, I wasn't sure if I had much longer left to live. I was still in tears when I got home." DB: You talked about taking neighbours' money for fake charity ventures and your shame at having to return the money before you entered rehab. How are things with you and the people in Dromore now? The court heard the 28-year-old, from Tummery Road, Dromore, Omagh, who also has three Ulster title medals, has been nominated for the 2016 All-Star football awards.

However, McCarron said he "started shaking with fear" when he received a phone call from the girl's father two weeks later. Tyrone reached the National League Final earlier in the season where the Dromore St Dympnas clubman held Dublin’s Bernard Brogan scoreless. Like many Irish names, the combination of letters can put many people off and lead them to pronounce the name in the wrong way. The same goes for Cathal, where the ‘t’ is silent – it’s an unwritten rule that many of us have grown up with, but we know it can be very confusing for others.At that stage I wasn't sure if I had much longer left to live. I was still in tears when I got home." It was deliberate because . . . look, after what I had been through and done through my addiction, I just felt blessed to be given a chance to have a life again. I just wanted to keep my head down and let my football on the field do the talking and for people to remember me for the footballer I am, and not what happened in London."